Just decided to rant, not that I think anyone reads this anyways...lol

I am having the crappiest month...ever.

I had to get my wisdom teeth pulled...all four. It cost me $200 up front, which they didn't ask me for until I was waiting in the lobby to go back and have them pulled after having fasted and taken vacation from work and everything, and of course I only had about $70 on me and no way of getting more money on such short notice. I had to reschedule for almost a month later, which especially sucked since the whole reason I was getting them removed was because I was in horrible pain from them, but of course that was the first opening they had so what could I do but accept? I had to pay for car insurance the week before the appointment, then I had to pay for the appointment out of the next week's check. From getting the teeth pulled I missed the last half of one week and the first half of another, so I only got half checks for two weeks, and then, of course, it was time to pay auto insurance again. I have never been so broke while actually working! Then there was the appointment itself. I had to have them put me under during the procedure because I am terribly afraid of doctors, dentists, and all of the things that go on in their offices...I woke up during the last part of the procedure and felt the dentist finish the last two teeth. For some reason the numbing stuff never works right on me, it gets tingly but it still hurts. I freaked out and started hyperventilating, I had a panic attack and then finished off by sobbing hysterically while trying to reassure the dentist and stunned assistant that I was okay. It was so humiliating, I was mortified.

I found out my best friend's grandpa had passed away, her grandma passed away not too long ago too and the both of them were like family to me. I was just getting over that shocker when I was informed that my own grandpa is terminally ill with cancer and only has 6-12 months to live. I was, and still am, devastated. He is so active and full of life, I can't even imagine him being weak and sick, let alone dying anytime soon. As mentioned I have had a rough month financially, but I resolved to find some way to gather up some money, most likely by begging family members, to fly out and see him. Since I live on the other side of the United States now it is not a cheap flight, however I found through discount sites online I could get out there and back for around $600 and I was sure that I could save some and borrow some, and go out for a nice visit while he is still relatively active so that I can have nice memories of my last time spent with him.

Then I came home from work to find a for-sale sign on the front lawn. Apparently Kurt's dad decided he is selling the house...now. He told us he was THINKING of selling the house soon, but that we would have at least six months. Now he expects us to find a place asap. Awesome. You know how much cash I can spare a month for rent? $400. And that is $400 that has to include any sort of utilities and whatnot, because that is all I can squeeze out of my paycheck and still be able to eat and drive back and forth to work. $400 is what I have after cutting costs to the bare minimum of everything. And you know what $400/month with horrible credit gets a girl these days? Maybe I can rent a room from some stranger and hope they aren't a psychopath who steals all my stuff or murders me in my sleep. Oh, and what about our pets? Well I highly doubt my new landlord or lady will appreciate a small dog and three cats, so once again I lose the little ones I hold so near and dear to my heart. Not to mention there is no way in hell I can think about scrounging up airfare when I have to miraculously find some other place to live and be able to somehow afford it. But you know, it's not like I can't visit my grandpa any old time, it's not like he's dy...oh, wait, HE FRIGGIN IS! *growls*

So, to recap:

No home
No money
Lots of pain and suffering
Losing several people/animals I love

Ain't it great to be me?

Okay, I'm done ranting. *sighs*

T_T I need a hug...